“Thunck,” “chk-chk.” “Thunck,” “chk-chk.” We’re on our second pitch of a beautiful mixed alpine route in RMNP and I’m leading up relatively easy ice. In the moment, I hear nothing, think nothing, feel nothing except the rhythm of my body’s movement, a movement I know well: the rhythm of ice climbing. Each swing of the tools elicits a solid “thunck,” followed by two quick steps of the feet, “chk-chk.” I waste no time looking for footholds or analyzing hand sequence, as I would do rock climbing, but just plug away in an almost effortless series of swings and steps. I just climb and occasionally stop to place an ice screw. Suddenly Karsten starts yelling…
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Karsten and Lindsay, in town from North Carolina, are fellow AMGA-Certified guides and my partners for the day. They were looking to do something in the Park and my plans for Indian Creek had just been canceled, so I’d suggested we climb the 1000′ Northeast Face of Notchtop, a relatively easy route (5.7, WI3). The forecast was good and it seemed this would be the last good day before a week-long storm blew in and made winter alpine climbing in the Park more miserable than usual. Confident in the forecast, we got a relatively late start and didn’t start the route until around 11:30am despite hiking “guides’ pace” on the approach.
Most of the lower face involved easy snow climbing up to 40-degrees, with a bit of 4th-class rock scrambling, before the real climbing began. Given the thin nature of the first pitch, its unknown length, and its relative difficulty, we’d decided to “caterpillar” the ropes. Karsten would lead on one 70-meter rope, Lindsay would go second and drag the second rope, and I’d come up last. Slow, for sure, but safe. As anticipated, the first pitch was the hardest due to thin ice, mixed moves and sparse coverage but Karsten led us through. As he climbed, the weather began to deteriorate. At first, it was just graupel bouncing down the rock but after five minutes it turned to actual snow. Soon I couldn’t see more than 30′. Lindsay started climbing and that’s when the sluffs began.
As is my lot in life, I was standing gloveless and holding my thermos of tea when the first big sluff came over the cliff above and landed directly on me. A rush of air and a hiss was all the warning I had before my jacket was filled with falling snow from the hood down. My insta-frozen hands stabbed for my puffy’s pockets only to find them, too, filled with snow. The next five minutes was spent in a flurry of shaking, twisting, jumping, brushing, and flapping to rid myself and clothing of the now-melting snow. Now you may wonder why I didn’t vacate my position but, in my mind, it was either the “occasional” neck-numbing sluff or stand under Lindsay and risk getting hit with falling ice. So I stayed and warmed myself by practicing my most alluring dance swaggers and jumping-jacks.
If that first sluff was annoying, the second one was mildly terrifying. As luck would have it, I was flapping my puffy’s hood free of snow when the sky seemed to darken above me. I stopped mid-flap, holding my hood open with bare hands as if to say, “Here I am,” as I looked upwards at the descending mass. I dove for my shallowly-placed ice tools, tucked up against them and held on as the torrent of snow tried to rip me from the ledge I’d stomped in the snow. Finite eternity passed and I remained on the mountain…once again looking like the Michelin Man, my jacket stuffed with snow. I tried looking on the bright side, at least there were no rocks in the sluff.
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Midway up pitch two, I hear the wind roaring over the Continental Divide 500′ above me but it’s perfectly windless where I am. It’s stopped snowing finally but not before depositing 6″ in an hour, we later found out. The sluffs have cleared out a pathway up the route, exposing the ice underneath. “Thunck,” “chk-chk.” I am where I love to be, in the moment, focused and finally warm again. “Thunck,” “chk-chk.” The cool, thin air at 11,500′ doesn’t phase me, the byproduct of living, working, and playing in these mountains 300 days a year. “Thunck,” “chk-chk.” For a moment I indulge myself, marveling at my mastery of this environment…a very brief moment.
“Big one’s coming, Andrew, big one! BIG ONE’S COMING!!!” I hear Karsten yelling at me but it takes a few seconds to register. From their position, Karsten and Lindsay must be able to see something I can’t. I arch my back to peer up and see another large sluff pouring down our route! With only seconds to react, there’s no time to place a screw and I’m 20-30′ above my last one. I move to one side as quickly as I can. “Thunck, thunck, thunck,” I swing my tools in and then…”THUNCK, THUNCK,” swing them harder. Visions of getting avalanched off the route race through my mind but there’s nothing more I can do. I tuck in, bow my head, and hold on tight as the first chunks of snow start to pelt me.
Somehow I’m in luck. I’ve moved just far enough to the side to avoid the main flow of snow. Again, eternity passes in what is probably only 15 seconds. I haven’t quite panicked but am frozen in place, waiting for it to be over. “THUNCK, THUNCK, THUNCK, THUNCK.” What is that? Oh…it’s my heart pounding in my ears and I’m breathing really hard. The snow stops flowing past me and I quickly drive in a screw, suddenly relieved. “Ha,” I think to myself, “I live!” Well, it’s only up from here so I climb until I run out of rope. I build a 3-screw anchor, yell off-belay, and put both ropes on belay to save time on this easier, more open terrain. As Karsten and Lindsay climb I realize what’s happening above us. The new snow that was on the face has already sluffed off and it’s sunny and clear, giving us the illusion of safety. But the 60mph winds tearing at the ridge above are depositing much more snow on the upper Face than we’d realized. Periodically, the upper bowl sluffs and just entrains more and more snow as it descends. At this point, going up will be safer than going down.

As I’m thinking this, I begin questioning the integrity of our anchor. It’s three screws but one is 13cm and the other two are 10cm, the smallest size made. They’re placed in a solid-looking slab of ice, properly spaced and equalized. But occasionally I feel the ice popping, cracking and shifting at my feet. With new snow covering everything, it’s difficult to tell what exactly I’m anchored to. I keep the belay tight. As soon as Karsten reaches the belay, I ask him to put in another screw 5′ away from our primary anchor…just in case. I must seem paranoid but my nerves are shaken. When Lindsay reaches the belay, they both hand me all the rack…I guess I’m leading again.
The next pitch is only 100′ but I’m plagued by the thought of another sluff catching me in the unprotected terrain before the next anchor. It’s a difficult choice: I can either climb fast without stopping to place screws but risk a huge fall if a sluff does catch me or I can stop to protect myself but risk more time in the danger zone. I do both by climbing fast and drilling in a couple screws as I leave the belay. My lungs hurt and my legs feel like lead, so tired. I just want to stop but some intuition drives me upward without resting. I’m maybe five steps from the safety of the next anchor when Karsten yells again, “Here comes another one!!”
I dive upward, drive both shafts of my tools to the hilt, and get small. The sky gets dark and once again I feel the snow tugging at me but, once again, I’ve managed to find a spot just right of the main flow. But my thoughts are not for myself. I’m thinking of Lindsay and Karsten at the last belay, getting pummeled by the debris, getting knocked off their stances, falling onto the anchor. I hear myself praying, “Please let the anchor hold, please let the anchor hold.” If it fails, we’re all done for.
The avalanche turns from a loud hiss to a roar, deafening as it tears past me. All I can do is hold on and wait. Then, sort of anticlimactically, it’s over. I hear someone yell, “Are you alright?” “Yes,” I yell back, “Are you guys ok?!” “Yeah, we’re good.” I fire in a 4-piece rock anchor, all solid gear but I’m scared now, and I feel a trembling in my legs. It’s not the standard “sewing-machine” or “Elvis” leg syndrome you’ll get when finding yourself at a hard move or scared. This is somehow deeper, completely emotion-driven and uncontrollable. I’ve felt it once before, when climbing “Smear of Fear” on Longs Peak and the ice climb “Wrecking Ball,” collapsed as we started up the second pitch of the Smear. I thought we were going to die, that the Smear was going to collapse next, and I just started shaking. Now on Notchtop, I know we’re fine but I can’t stop the shaking. It is, literally, awesome and weird.
When they reach the anchor, I apologize to Karsten and Lindsay, feeling our predicament is my fault. I query if either of them want to lead the next pitch but, I know, it’s mine. It’s the steepest pitch but it’s all ice and should be quick. Once again, all I can think about is getting flushed mid-pitch but I just try to climb fast and efficiently. Over the top, I race the last 100′ to another solid rock anchor. My partners follow without issue. The following two pitches are also uneventful, mostly steep snow, rock, and shrub climbing. And then it’s over. We’re in the long descent gully, laughing and relieved. It’s just a 1000′ of 35-to-40-degree snow, some down-climbing, and then we’re back on flat ground. The winds have their way with us as 40-50mph gusts rake the earth clean of fresh snow but we’re safe.
As we walk back past Lake Helene, I look back up at the Face and I remember that brief feeling of mastery. I scoff at myself. There is no master in the mountains but God and the mountains themselves. The Northeast Face is an easy climb by most standards, something I’ve considered soloing many times. But this time, on this day, I was reminded that the mountains don’t care what your ability is, how bold you are, how easy the route is or how many times you’ve climbed it. For better or worse, that’s just the way it is.
